oddgirlnextdoor
Illinois, United States
Bio: I'm the odd girl next door. I'm a mom, an editor, bookworm, Wild Mystic, girlfriend, housekeeper, driver....well, I'm a little bit of everything. lol I serve. I wait for the Watch Towers. I have a mouth like a sailor, and a sense of humor so sharp, I rarely ever require a blade. Sarcasm is my primary language, followed by a close second of English. I like to make things funny, even things that piss me off. If there's an angry post and you laugh: NEVER APOLOGIZE. If my anger can be funny to someone, eventually, I know it can be so for me too. I only claim to know what I know, so for the most part, this is an opinion blog. And yes, even the scientific posts that I back up with facts, I even question that. It's called a Hypothesis and Theory for a reason. Gravity may be considered a fact, but it's still only a theory, and no one can see it, taste it, or touch it. They can only feel it. Same as I work with the Powers That Be. Just because You cannot see it, does not mean it isn't THERE. I'll write about so much random, your head will likely spin: thank you A.D.D. But there ya have it, me. I'd say in a nut shell, but that one already cracked and ran for the border; it got tired of trying to contain a forever changing Phoenix. I fall, I rise, I fall again: I rise again. Don't count how many times you've fallen; count how many times you've got back up.
OddGirlNextDoor 
It’s not funny!! But I do dig. And I definitely commend you moving out and moving on.
Oh, stick around. Shit’s about ta get REAL! The more pissed I get, the more analogies I use; it’s soothing to me, hilarious to others (which is an odd but tremendous help). I may be losing what I’d hoped would be a future, but it’s just time to take a different tack. I don’t know what the future has for me, but if it’s alone, so be it. I will NOT be made to feel this way, and no one else ever should. I’m glad you dig, because I’ll need someone to tell me honestly when I hit whiney. I bitch, I don’t whine. It’s cool if someone else does lol It’s just a personal preference is all. Hopefully by writing it out and re-reading I can cope and give myself some perspective on this. I usually write then burn, write then burn, but, I don’t think it’s going to help in this particular sitch. I need to acknowledge all of this and deal with it, truthfully, no holds barred; because what I was doing wasn’t working, or it’d make sense now. I can’t begin to heal and feel better (mentally, emotionally, and physically, along side Depression and Fibromyalgia) if I don’t own it. If I don’t own IT, IT owns me, and I can’t allow that to be okay.
Ha – so well said “If I don’t own it, it owns me”. That’s true, you know.
I think this blog thing is great for correcting shit gone awry inside. It WILL do you good. And empower you. And you’ll find (sadly) heaps of people relate.
Awesome to find another real woman of substance 🙂
It’s true. I think to a certain extent we allow ourselves to be owned by things that shouldn’t have any power to begin with. But that’s how we lose ourselves, not in a wham!, but quietly and silently, one tiny little piece at a time until, one day, we’re not who we thought we were, or who we hoped we were becoming. It’s silent, insidious, and deadly to the heart and spirit. I may have let it go this far, but I think I’m better prepared to stop it, now that I know what it is. I’m broken hearted, but it’s temporary and I will survive. That’s just that. lol I’m glad that you found me, I didn’t expect anyone to read the rantings of someone like me, since I’m a little mad haha ^_^ And thank you for the compliment! It means more than you know 😀
Glad to see you smile 🙂
Glad I found you too!
Blessings upon your journey.
Thank you so much! It’s certainly staying interesting lol
You’ve made the RIGHT choice – so no second guessing yourself.
It WILL be hard! – the emotional distress and grief of loosing a relationship will hurt like crazy (I know cause I have been there too) and that combined the fibromyalgia you described in one of your comments on my ‘Legalization’ post will not make things easier, but… take some comfort from this:
Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness.
Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation) there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: That the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too.
All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way.
I have learned a deep respect for one of Goethe’s couplets : “Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it”
– Quotation from The Scottish Himalayan Expedition, by W.H. Murray, Pub. J.M. Dent & Sons, Ltd., 1951
It’s wonderful to have met you, and I look forward to following your journey and providing support (albeit from the sidelines)
Miss Lou
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Thank you. And support is support, no matter where it’s from. :-).
🙂 My thoughts exactly…